looking for Egyptian love songs .....
will have to be in a conference which i will be graded for next Monday...
for Lit class...

appa bought so many stuff today...
can't wait to use them...
waiting to try my new recipe....=)

the camp i attended was ok....
was sick the whole time..
guess that was what made me trash everything...
but my head is clear now..
so,
a better review of the whole experience...
pastor JJ was awesome...
his bold faith amazed me...

Bishop Anton's words of wisdom was good...
the only thing is that the place where we stayed was....hmmm,how do i put it???
less satisfying....its ok anyway...since i only paid 50 so i got what i deserved...

had a great time with Jasmine and Feli although was sick...
but i'm glad i'm home at Klang now...
Klang...
tanah tumpahnya darahku...
i love u!!!

finally back in Klang!!!! yay!!
uttering the words "appa" n "amma" felt soo good....
i'm finally home...
i've never appreciated home like this but now i do...
but i have a mark to remember this experience...
fell and sprained my ankle at Ayer Hitam...knee got scratched...
cant walk properly..
am walking like Oedipus momentarily....
just finished important stuff for the PTPTN loan...
was totally dumb at the bank..

Jona n i saw the power of positive confession...
Thank u pastor S.D for encouraging us to change our negative confession into a positive one...
had Mcd for lunch...
going to KJ in the evening for the prayer vigil...
hope i'll be in the P&W team today..

Klang...
i love u sooooooo much!!!
i never appreciated u....
but now i know i cant live anywhere else...

arggh!!!
i'm suffering now!!!
the singapore trip that i had been looking forward tooo is a disaster!!!!
i promise myself i'll never leave klang again....
this sux...
everything sux...
i wish i was here for a difffrent reason...
had an upset stomach since yesterday...
couldnt sleep...
thinking about mum and dad with tears...
My god!!! i miss them like crazy now...
my head is aching like crazy...
cant wait to get back to klang..
hating it
only good thing is me logging in ...

Looking back...
i Just can't believe how many dreams of mine have come true...
all of it i have received it within two months of 2010...
my God!

i wanted to be in Living Springs since last year but i couldn't due to other commitments...
but I'm finally in this year!
it feels wonderful to set myself aside to serve God...i love standing there worshiping God... that's first dream come true..

second...i finally got my passport done...yay!
all this while ,it was a bit costly ...but this time,its price went so low that all five of us could take it without spending too much...=) all five!!

will be going to Singapore on Sunday...
going to pastor JJ's church..
hope it will be a bang..

good friday

just got to know that Sham is back in Klang...
hope to meet her soon.. :)
finished student council meeting...got elected as a secretary again...
wanted to give it up...but sweet Jonathan K actually listened really well...did not force me to take it up...but listened to all that i had to say...hmmm...there should be more Jonathan K's in the world...he nodded and gave me the sympathetic look showing that he understood what i was feeling although i only sounded stupid to others...

which is why i say...the world needs many more Jonathan K's...
Student council actually still has me as its secretary because of him....
Jon should be a psychologist...
the day has been filled with people....mostly pleasant people...
had a good time with Siang Lai and Lee Shian during Literature discussion...wonderful people...
Siang Lai never stops smiling...which makes me smile all the time too..
i like that...
SL actually wanted to hook me up with his friend....haha.....telling me that he's cute la,he drives an awesome car la...this and that...he even wanted to give me his friend's number...hahaha..i brushed it all off...
Lee Shian dumbfounds me with her character...
she's so brave...and ever ready to take on any challenge..
hmmm...i know they can be trusted...

have a number of things to do....
have to prepare scripts for our Lit drama..
lit research paper with 20 citations due 1st march..
science two assignments...

Living springs worship practice today at Kelana Jaya...
going with feli , attai and mama to KJ...
wow.....
i asked God for a packed year,He gave me a packed year...
and i'm loving it!

=)

the past few days has been very busy....but after the past post...everything just got so much better for me...had a great time with my team members putting together our science project....thank God...they are so dedicated...the whole day was great....however,i saw the bus driver again....thank God he didnt try to act funny again....

had a literature presentation about A Man of the People...
miss janet said some really nice things...=)
Thank God...
was feeling like crap that day but God comforted me... :)

help!

ok...what is morality??
morality is a behavioural code or social instrument adopted in a society or sub-committee to guide them in their daily lives.
morality is an external element imposed on an individual until and cultured until it becomes a habit....
phew..!!!
what a long definition...
i'm supposed to be studying now...so i'm doing it while i blog...
decreases my guilt...
i feel like all the laziness i had in form six is coming back...
i can't control myself..
My God!!!
this better not continue...
hmmm...what do i do??

i think i need some serious counselling...

......=(.....

having a test in fifteen minutes time...
moral studies...
gosh,i still can't believe i'm doing this even in tertiary level...
i thought i left moral studies in sekolah menengah for good...
apparently i didn't..

i'm wrong!!!

sometimes I'm so glad that I'm wrong...
whenever i think that all hope is gone,I'm wrong..
there is still hope,because...
With God all things are possible!!!

Whenever i think that i can never do it,I'm wrong...
because I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!!

whenever i think that my wildest dreams will never come to pass,I'm wrong...
because He is able to do exceedingly,abundantly,more than our minds can imagine according to the power that works in us...woah!which means He is able to do all the things that my mind can't conceive...
i love this...
i Love the fact that I'm wrong!!
because if I was right,I'm doomed...
This just shows that everything that I've been listening to is plain wrong...
and I'm so glad...
I'm so glad because when everyone told me that i could mount up to nothing,they were wrong!!!
it's just that i didn't know then that they were wrong...
but thanks to the God of Jabez who crushed all the lies of the devil that was taking over my mind little by little...
which is why i say....
I'm delivered!!!!
and all praise be to God!!!

first Sunday

had planning meeting for MYF today...for the whole year...plans included a mini military training...interesting...had lunch at 10.30 am today..rice, chicken sambal,sweet & sour fish and coleslaw...delicious..

will be going to Singapore coming Sunday for the Levites Camp...
hope it will be very interesting..
heard many good stuff about the speaker..
he actually plants churches...wow...
wish i could do that too...
right now i am all ready to throw myself to the ministry...
i want my 2010 to be filled with the things of God...
January was fantastic...
because i joined Pastor S.D's worship team..wow,its power-packed...
how i wish i could be like him...
i actually accepted Jesus after attending his meetings...
before that i was a typical angry teen blaming God for everything that went wrong in my life...
but only after attending his meetings i knew my perception about God was totally distorted..
God doesn't mess my life up,the Devil does!
why did it take so long for me to realize that???!
anyway,now i know that God wants me to be happy and joyful all the time...
he wants me to prosper...
i remember asking God...
will I ever be delivered??!! i knew something was wrong with me..shortly after that I was delivered..delivered from anger and bitterness..
i really don't know where I'll be without Him...
I'd probably still be shouting and fighting with everyone..

i love Him

ok,i've just said some negative stuff...
hmm...i'm so sorry,Jesus
i'm supposed to be positive ryt nw because i knw that u can fix evrything...

Jesus has been great to me...
i love u Lord...
i just received an imperishable gift from Him, - the gift of tongues...yay!!!!
i've been asking Him for it for a year.but i doubted...its all about believing..i did not get it while i was doubtful but i received when i believed..
aunty Serena told me something that i won't forget...
she told me that the gift of tongues is a gift from God...He is not expecting anything from us...He just wants to give it to us...all this while i thought that i had to qualify for it...for,obviously it was wrong...He just wants to give us all the privilege of being His child...
that is why Jesus,there is none like u...
now i know that when i pray ,I don't pray like a normal person but i pray in the capacity of God himself...Thank God!i can only see a certain level of my challenges but God sees the bigger picture..that is why praying in His capacity is the most effective prayer of all...
Jesus, u take my breath away...
i love u,Jesus...

aarrgghh!!!

still can't find Chinua Achebe's novel...
have to present something based on his novel coming Monday...
for lit class...
feeling like crap now...
i need that novel!!!

to make matters worse, someone just said on FB that my name is kampung! Gosh! added with laughter..
i just can't believe that guy..
anyway,whatever la with him...

feel like screaming at evrything...
i just hate whatever that's going on...

my very first tension release

What a Tuesday!

Cheh! i was falling asleep in moral class...teacher noticed and asked me to read aloud in class...alamak!

Then, was hunting for Zac all over college....just to get the cash !!! aiyo,aiyo...

another thing to worry....have to pray this prayer another time...

Lord,
I don't wanna see him today,
not today,not ever....

hmmm...i just can't take it...
i don't wanna see that bus driver again...
aiyo,dat fellow keeps bugging me...
giving me that pitiful look when i don't speak or respond to him....
My God!
How long????!!
since April 2009!!!
aiyo!!!
but he is so,so,so, rude...
hmmph!!
i accidentally looked at him once and he thought i was checking him out(as if!)so he wanted to get back at me la...want to show his anger pulak....for all those months i spent ignoring him..
sped all the way to bukit tinggi...
he knew i would be getting down at the side of the road, but he switched lanes on purpose just before i got down and pressed hard on the brake when i pressed the bell...
idiot!
i almost fell...
hmmm...since then la i started saying this prayer..
why are some people so kampung???
this fellow behaved like a potential criminal...
dats why la...all this prayer...

then,after masuk rumah...i'm going to betul-betul sleep...thanking God for not seeing dat guy...(hopefully)

and then,tomorrow going to do pasport with appa...planning to go for Levites Camp in Singapore..
have to wake up early again....

after that,come home must find Chinua Achebe's work - A Man of The People..
next Monday got presentation...
but don't know what bomb gonna fall this time...
aiyo...aiyo...
Jesus,Save me!!